Still trying to find results

The barium enema checkup turned up nothing unusual or newsworthy in my large bowel. Now I have to wait a couple of weeks and have more blood taken to see why my hemoglobin count is so low. The good news is that I don't have to prepare for this blood test--no fasting or anything. The bad news is that I hate needles. Oh well...

On a lighter note, well not really, I've just read "God is not Great" by Christopher Hitchens. He comes across as a very angry man. Totally doesn't believe God exists, and really dislikes all forms of religion, from Christianity to Islam to Buddhism. True, horrible actions have been committed in the name of God, but there has been a lot of good too. I do agree that we (us humans) are responsible for our actions, and it is not the fear of God, but our conscience that stops us from doing bad things (also fear of punishment - though the way the justice system is running these days, there's not much to fear).

I still think that there is something bigger than us that is all good, all loving, all knowing, be it called God, or the Universe or whatever. I just feel it in my bones. Is this hope, blind faith? Or is it that certain "knowing" (also known as intuition) that we (again, us humans) are born with and that we can access with practice?

I doubt that science will ever be able to prove or disprove the existence of Something Holy and Universal. It would be nice to have signs of this being - like supernatural occurrences. Of course, maybe there are supernatural events going on around us all the time, and we just don't see them. Now that's something to think about.

So, the biblical God really does not ring true for me. I think it is an interpretation of what was thought were some divine happenings made by a people that were struggling to make sense of their world. But, my inner knowing, my intuition, my wacky sense of hope and joy tell me that there is something wonderful and spiritual, and that it is our joyful duty to get to know it.

Though he is probably is in it for the money (after all everyone needs to make a living), I think Wayne Dyer has a good grip on this philosophy.